Yesterday, our little family went to National Bookstore Cubao to buy me a General Psychology book, which I will be using for my pre-requisute subject in my masters degree. To my utter excitement, I skimmed all the 367 pages it contained last night and just finished the first chapter.
I already have personal preferences on the topics included in it: personality theories, neuropsychology, emotion, abnormal psychology, human development. Generally, topics that relate to or affect human relationships appeal deeply to my interest.
And as I was getting giddy, I realized, things are happening faster than I expected. It wasn’t long ago when I was grappling for what professional career I would take. And then as if answering my quest, I came across a book which turned my life around – it showed me the intersection of my potential and passion, which ultimately led me to my purpose.
For some years I nurtured that dream and planned for a ministry. Then I got to know someone who is a counselor, we had a little chat which opened up bigger possibilities for me and has awaken a bigger dream in me. And now here I am, completing my graduate school application requirements for June 2013.
Of course all of my ramblings here depend largely on my passing my entrance exam on either Ateneo or Miriam, where my first choice is MA in Counseling Psychology in Ateneo. And with the unknown territory that I will embark to, I can’t help but be scared. Scared of what the future holds for me. Scared if this is really what is right for me.
This feeling that I’m having right now, brings back an old memory. A memory that brings me back to the time when I was a fourth year high school student and was attending a career convocation seminar. I was also scared of what the future holds for me back then. But I took comfort on the message of the opening prayer of our career seminar. It made me confident about the uncertain future.
And now I’m retrieving that old poem to remind me again that I should remain still, confident and trusting. Though I may be uncertain of the future, I will rest in the fact that I know who holds tomorrow and I know who holds my hands.
I Know Who Holds Tomorrow
I don’t know who holds tomorrow, I just live from day to day
I don’t borrow from its sunshine, for its skies may turn to gray
I don’t worry over the future, for I know what Jesus said.
And today, I’ll walk beside Him for He knows what is ahead.
Many things about tomorrow, I don’t seem to understand.
But I know who holds tomorrow, and I know who holds my hand.
Every step is getting brighter, as the golden stairs I climb.
Every burden’s getting lighter, every cloud is silver lined.
There the sun is always shining, there no tear will dim the eye.
At the end of the rainbow, where the mountains touch the sky.
I don’t know about tomorrow, it may bring me poverty.
But the one who speeds the sparrow, is the one who stands by me.
And the path that be my portion, maybe through the flame or flood
But His presence goes before me, and I’m covered with His blood.