Who am I?

Who am I?

If you are to ask yourself this question, how are you gonna answer it?

It’s  a hard question isn’t it?

Until yesterday, I didn’t know how would I want to answer this either.

Am I my profession? Am I my ambitions? Or am I my passions? Hmmm… I think they all qualified to describe who I am, but there is more to me than those. Like what my professor told us, we are a collage of different facts about us. And by building on that, I would say that I am my past, my present and my future. And until I haven’t accepted these things about me, I cannot fully say that I have already found myself.

So how would I elaborate on this?

I am my parents’ daughter, my brother’s sister, my friends’ friend, my daughter’s mom, my husband’s wife.

I am my happy and painful experiences in the past.

I am my strengths and weaknesses.

I am my failures and successes.

I am my fears, my hopes and my aspirations.

I am my wrong and right choices in the past, present and future.

I am my beautiful and not so beautiful physical attributes.

I am my dreams and potentials that I haven’t realized yet.

I am the sum of the whole, the entirety of my existence. I can’t separate one part of me from the rest of myself because that won’t be me.

If I don’t accept the kind of family which I came from, then I don’t know who I am. If I deny the hurts that my painful experiences brought me, then I don’t know who I am. If I pretend to be somebody else that I’m not, then I don’t know who I am. If I will keep on running away from my past, present and future, then I will never be able to find myself.

To top it all, I am Nova, God’s master plan, His work in progress, His unique child. I can only accept all these beautiful and ugly truths about me if I will learn to see myself through the eyes of God.

So what about you? Have you found yourself already?