INFJ Diary

Wishful Thinking: Living a Life of Fasting

Okay. First off, I don’t mean fasting from eating but fasting from overusing technology – online forums, checking my blog stats, cheking my Facebook and email notifications.

I don’t need to fast from food since I’m the type of person who doesn’t find enjoyment from eating.

Whenever I get bored, I turn to online activities automatically. With a smart phone in hand, my fingers would tap away the sites I always visit. It’s as if they know what to do, like they have a mind of their own.

I’ve been fasting months before. I’ve read a book on fasting and applied what I learned. But then the past several weeks, it seems I’ve fallen back into my old habit again. I have to retrace my way back and continue where I have started.

I came to this thinking because I read an article and realized that I’m living a meaningful but an unhappy life. I only have one life and I want to be happy.

So I began to ponder about it, what is it that could make my life both meaningful and happy. In a flash, I knew the answer: GOD. And looking in the past, I’ve lost my resolve to pray, meditate, and read the Word – again.

Honestly, this spiritual discipline of mine is an on and off, on and off habit for me. One month I would religiously practise my discipline only to forget about it the next month. Nevertheless, I still believe that this is worth taking despite my weaknesses. So I will not tire of starting all over again.

And for me, it’s fasting that will get me back on my feet again. In the past, fasting has helped me to be more present in the moment, more focused on what truly matters in life, more appreciative, more thoughtful of God and his workings, and consequently, more happy and contented in my life.

So with that all said, I will again begin that journey today, up to the time that I need to keep on beginning again and again and again.

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